Sick of Drama

Well, i thought that the first day of the new semester would be really great! But i thought that way...I even uploaded the photo of the good weather on facebook which means a good start of the new semester. I really thought the first day back to school would be awesome. The fact is not!

The drama was caused becuase of the spliting in to groups for Group presentation. I always stick with the group with my best friends, but the situation is not the same anymore. That girl dating with that guy, that guy have to be the leader of the group. For some reason i just know that i would not have a happy ending with that group, cuz i'm kinda a leader role in a group. Therefore it would cause even more drama if i join that group. So i decided to be at the other group.

I really thought that would be the perfect move for the situation that i had! However, the girl gone mad cuz i dont wanna join her group. But think about it. How would people on the earth would join a group like that. I mean it dosent mean that i dont like being friends with them but i just cant take that much of drama, the only thing i want is to focus on my work!

Next time, i should think of smarter move for myself, if have to deal with a situation like that! Well I just dont want eveyone to be upset!

Beside that it was a pretty good school day for me cuz i was pretty focusing! And I still feel God's present. After all the things i've been through to get this feeling back, hope that feeling is not going away any sooner!

btw i got a knitted scarf form 1 of my classmates=]

A Touching Coversation with God

I think you guys all know that i've been barely showing up recently. Umm, i think the reason is because i didnt think i deserve this wonderful and GREAT( as Crowder said) relationship with God. At that time i have a lot of problems to deal with. For example, my Mom's family having a money problem because of her husband loses his job, my dad still having a low paid job, school stuff is driven me crazy and i was kinda learning to be more independence. Those stuff were making me really stressful. Therefore i didnt wanna go to church at all to show my pitty face!

Today, i went to the 5pm service( thanks Tyler) The Service was GREAT because was about God. One thing was like slap my face off! He said something like " nothing can make god loves you more or less!" At that point i started crying cuz i've forgot the most important thing about god, and he was kinda mentioned the song that i have no idea what that is. The lyrics was so touching. After the speaking we sang the " Here im to worship" i couldnt hold my tears anymore, then i ask Caro for tissue, i hope i didnt scared you!

The reason why i was crying is because i always tell myself that why im going through all those stuff but no one is there to say something like "everything's gonna be okay!" or "you're doing great!" . But today i really feel love from God. HE really touches my heart. Now i know what's like to have a relationship with God. This is what i have never tried before!

Encounter

I feel like i havent been to encounter for so long.I just really miss the encounterlast year. I thought we were so close with each other. That makes me realize i should talk to the new kids more!

It was better than i thought though! Small group was kinda awkward for me. i have no idea why, but i just didnt feel like to share, maybe i get used to jon and Matt too much, now i need sometime to get used to the new leaders. btw they are so cool! but i just need sometime...

After the small group we sang together, and i played a little bit guitar! I havent played that in a really long time! I miss it so much!

Then we went to watch The Imagnarium of Doctor Parnssus. it was good but jon and marcus dont like it...!

Ummm, going back to school next monday. I dont wanna go back for sure, cuz i know once i started school i would be really busy, and i dont have time to hang out with my friends, which is i really hate about school! Anyway, i'm gonna try my best to show up!

Jesse thanks for your email! I'm checking the tickets every week, i think that plan is work for me, and thank you for putting them together for me. I'm really looking forward to you guys' wedding! PS TST is good option for honey moon!

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