Result

Well, i know i havent wrote anything lastely! It's not becasue i'm lazy, I really dont think people is reading this! However, Jesse asked me why didnt i write anything on the blog.... Then I finally realize that there are people reading this blog!

Okay! Result, I thought i did okay cuz like most of the subjects are okay and like i worked so hard on each of the subjects...! However, when I realize i wasnt doing that great if i compare with my classmate. I feel really bad!

Compare! Well This is the the biggest reason why i wanna go overseas! Hk is like a really crazy place, cuz all they do its comparing people!whoever worse than the best one is loser...! This is so bad..! Actually, I found out that my emotion effected on my health as well. After i got my result back i started to feel bad physically!

Iknow i wasnt that good ... but please dont really push me... I really wanna die...! Study it's really crazy here... Ijust wanna leave...it's like the hardest thing in my life... not that you're not good enough... it's like the way people look at you it's really scary.. even your best friends are try to push...! You're not good enough you can do better! I know those are the words that make you do better! But i really cant take it! Dont apply your asianess in myself! IN HK no one can get straight A's.... as list not in local school! It's really tearing me apart,,,! Iknow I screw up already...! I always think that im useless.. People at my age should be in College but im not! just dont wanna think about it! I'm always not go enough! I'm rubbish